Let’s take a flash back to the beginning of 2020 where I began treatment for my Eating Disorder at Newmarket House. It was here that I discovered that by talking about things and addressing them I had no choice but to seek help for what was really troubling me deep down and although it’s been …
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I’m now 25 years of age with a life that is full of, happiness and aspirations. Sadly, these personality traits have only just come back after being disguised with weakness, isolation and despair. This was due to a slow introduction of unwanted triggers and circumstances, leading to a situation where I found myself tightened under …
Yes you read it correctly, I’m on the discharge pathway to coming home and it’s a lot sooner than I ever imagined but now is the right time to fly the nest. I feel more ready than ever to take on what awaits me on the outside and it certainly couldn’t of been done without …
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Firstly I want to thank every single one of you who took the time out to read my previous blog, who commented, shared or private messaged me I was honestly overwhelmed with lots of different emotions but with a feeling of finally being able to accept myself and be accepted by others. Since my recent …
Since a young age I have known that something wasn’t quite right within my body and what will always stick with me is saying that I want to be a boy and have a sex change at the age of Seven. It was dismissed daily by myself and others too and was just of the …
After much exploring on a day-to-day basis within Therapy I have broken down each individual part of my Autism to give my Family & Friends some form of understanding as well as other people who may be struggling to come to terms with who they are. I am no where near the point of accepting …
I’ve been trapped in a haze of malnutrition for many years either eating too little or eating too much blunting the feelings of overwhelming anxiety that drown me. I cannot comprehend what is driving this behaviour, I’ve been told before this admission that I COULDN’T quite possibly have an Eating Disorder because I didn’t have …
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Well if this Lockdown has taught me anything it’s that Family & Friends are incredibly important during tough times. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t struggling right now, I’m missing home, I’m missing my beloved Family, Dogs, Friends and having a normal life away from lockdown, Newmarket House and my Eating Disorder …
The past two months have quickly flown by and still I find myself staring at the same exhausted, weak, depressed, pathetic, lonely self in the mirror. Being in here has opened my eyes to a whole new world of what my Eating Disorder is actually all about and it’s very scary and difficult to see …
Continue reading ““The only weight you need to lose is the weight of the world on your shoulders””
Firstly I want to begin with saying thank you for the undying love & support from Family and Friends and those who I’m no longer in contact with but have checked in and showed support. This difficult period of my life has become increasingly hard and however big or small the support, the easier it …
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